Sunday, March 25, 2007

Still not intending to work haha
maybe after the chalet than job hunt
just feel like slacking somemore
got fear next time wan slack also cannot
[can hear those working ppl saying mi liao haha]

thankful for being able to slack
and not worry about survival
cause of this i made myself promise
promise to give back more to my parents :D

finally got a workable rogue galaxy :P
somemore got keroro gunso!
and afew shows dling like
hana yori dango 1
my name is earl 2
day break

thats gonna keep mi alive :D

u all remembered few weeks back
i was rewatching H & C season 1?
i actually wrote down quite a number of
quotes and words in the show
which hit mi dip dip
maybe some or most may seem weird to u all
its some of the things i feel for so :P

its not all of it
cause some is too un-understandable
unless u ish in my smelly shoes :P

so here goes

Hanamoto Sensei's Words
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Everyone smiles at the young girl's innocent words...
Gently looking at her.

Even though everyone knows that it's a wish
that will disappear like snow with the passing of time.

But because of that, they said nothing.
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Takemoto's Words
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Although there's no way to stop what flows downstream...
Lets just be ourselves now.

Just for a little while longer.

Let's pass through the town with its snowy scent
on the way home and eat something warm.

And then...
Curl up and fall asleep.
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Takemoto's Words
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I like cherry blossoms.

But...
Why do i feel relieved when they all scatter?

Is it because I'm released from
the melancholy feeling of lamenting their scattering?======================================

Takemoto's Words
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I didn't realize it.

I was simply happy that she could be herself in front of me.
The way she happily ate her flan in front of me was adorable.

Being so nervous that even swallowing
becomes difficult when your're with that person...

If thats called love...
Then really...

I must've been in love all by myself.
All by myself.
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Takemoto's Words
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He has everything i want in the palm of his hand...

and he doesn't even bother hiding it.
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Takemoto's Words
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They're both in a world i can't enter.

And...
Distance doesn't exist in that world.
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Yamada's Words
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Wanting to hear just those words...

I put my hair up, choose my kimono,
went through a heck of a time getting dressed...
Wore geta that i'm not used to wearing, and got my heart pounding.

All for those words from no one but you.
I hoped that maybe your heart would tilt just a little bit towards me.

Why do i always end up dreaming?

Over and over, never getting tired of it,
like a fool repeating the only thing he knows.
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Mayama's Words
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The pain which tears my heart apart just thinking about it...

That this pain is enough reason for me not to distance myself from her.
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Hanamoto Sensei's Words
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You can only keep trying or give up.
These are the only two choices we humans ever have.

All you can do is to tell them your honest feelings.

The rest is up to them.
To keep trying, or to give up.
Then it'll be their turn to choose.

I lied about one thing to yamada-san.
There are actually three choices.
But a path will open up easier
when you believe that there are only two choices.

I won't mention the third choice.
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Takemoto's Words
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But i realized something.
The reason why i'm lost.

It's not because i don't have a map.

What i lack is...
A destination.
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Yamada's Words
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God...

Please...Please...
Let everyone become happy...

Please let happiness fall equally upon all of us...
Just like this snow...
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Yamada's Words
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Many words came to my mind...

But they all seemed too unnatural and embarrassing.
I couldn't even bring them to my lips.

so i just absent-mindedly watched the person i like so much
turn transparent in the winter sunlight.
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Yamada's Words
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I was getting frustrated for feeling so saddened by just those words.

And i couldn't stop the mounting frustration at myself
for venting that frustration on mayama...
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takemoto's Words
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The time that had stopped began to move.

No...
It never even slowed.
Time was streaming down, just like a waterfall.

This whole year, while i had been simply standing still...
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Hanamoto Sensei's Words
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A world that i couldn't see,
no matter how hard i strained my eyes.

Dreams and aspirations that i wasn't able to fulfill.
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Takemoto's Words
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God...

Is it more painful to cry when you can't do something you want to,
or when you can't find what you want to do?

There's only one thing that i do know.
That even if i put everything i have into that task...

I can't stop her tears.
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Takemoto's Words
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I finally understood after screaming some.

I'd been afraid this whole time.
I was afraid because i couldn't see my future.
I was afraid of not knowing what i wanted to do...
and of myself for not knowing that.

And...
I was afraid of the days that nevertheless flew by without any mercy.

But...
Even then...
If i keep riding like this, will i be able to see it?
Someday, even i...?
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maybe this will cause the lost of interest to read on for some ppl
but its something im so crazy over :S
how life is :X

Yotsuba no Clover...

12:03 AM

Yamada's words

I wonder how you're suppose to give up...

Do i just decide to give up and act accordingly?
And move further and further from what my heart really wants?

Then will i forget everything someday?.
Everything, including this pain in my heart?
Everything...

Without a trace...
As if nothing was there to begin with?

Rika's words

I end up taking advantage of him because i know that he likes me.

I push away and hurt him but i still keep him by my side.

Takemoto's words

Hearing that, i realised that i was empty inside.

Up until that point i was blindfolding myself with responsibilities i had to bear.

but now that i was
suddenly free to do whatever i wanted,

I had to face the fact that i couldn't really do anything.

Takemoto's words

The day will surely come when everything ends and turns into a memory.

But...Im sure that I'll reminisce about it again and again.

You were there.
Everyone was there.

The day we searched for that one thing under the blue sky.

Takemoto's words

The sunset that i see as i stand next to you...

is so beautiful that it aches my heart.

So beautiful.