Monday, February 05, 2007

Wads up with the
"End of poly and we will neber
see each other again" Post and mood :S
its not the end of the world :P

but its nice to look back
at everything good or bad that has
happened during this 3 years
say short not really short
say long it isnt that long either haha

seems like everyone loves year 1
the time of innocence and steadiness LOL
when there wasnt really biasness
or discriminations formed yet
where everyone hang out together
and not in small groups

well its just how it is
time of innocence is over
reality is hitting us hard haha

they always say dun let children
watch those violent stuff ah
y? those stuff is not fake lol
its stuff thats really going on
reality is that hiong :S
y give them the fake sense of innocence
show them fairy tales and happy ever afters
its just gonna make them feel worst
when they realise reality

okok back to poly stuff wahaha

somehow im not feeling it
even influences from poly friends
didnt get mi into feeling for poly
tried tinking about stuff that happened in poly
something is just not right
everything seems monotone

its not that poly sux or wad
and i dunno y too LOL
im just not feeling anything

maybe im a late bloomer LOL
or am i old liao :S
lost my innocence long ago? wahaha

after reading jy and dave's post on poly life
its quite interesting i must say
not about the poly life
but wad they wrote LOL

its all about studies LOL
ok maybe most of it is on that
talks about lecturers ah
modules ah projects and stuff :S

i was tinking looking back at those
fun outing days
interesting outrages events
stuff like that
all about the ppl of poly
and nothing to do with studies :P
maybe thats just mi lah wahaha

Difference with chiongsters and slackers :D

maybe its cause of something
y they were able to remember
things like outings so clearly
cause buay steady right LOL
than go little outings
so the outings is memorable :P
ok lah LOL dun bite mi :D

Ya it was great
so great that i cant really remember
which is greater than which :S
my life in poly was more of a straightline
straightline as throughout poly
there was an evenly distributed amount of
fun, special outings, stuff like that

maybe thats y i feel so numb about it
some factor of the long break and ns
makes mi feel that i have time
time to still go out and enjoy haha

maybe it will hit mi on thurs
or sometime later LOL
will post when it did haha

How will i be remembered as to u all?

Yotsuba no Clover...

9:56 AM

Yamada's words

I wonder how you're suppose to give up...

Do i just decide to give up and act accordingly?
And move further and further from what my heart really wants?

Then will i forget everything someday?.
Everything, including this pain in my heart?
Everything...

Without a trace...
As if nothing was there to begin with?

Rika's words

I end up taking advantage of him because i know that he likes me.

I push away and hurt him but i still keep him by my side.

Takemoto's words

Hearing that, i realised that i was empty inside.

Up until that point i was blindfolding myself with responsibilities i had to bear.

but now that i was
suddenly free to do whatever i wanted,

I had to face the fact that i couldn't really do anything.

Takemoto's words

The day will surely come when everything ends and turns into a memory.

But...Im sure that I'll reminisce about it again and again.

You were there.
Everyone was there.

The day we searched for that one thing under the blue sky.

Takemoto's words

The sunset that i see as i stand next to you...

is so beautiful that it aches my heart.

So beautiful.